Sunday, September 27, 2009

Despite the fact that I dislike Alex Gaskarth.

This video still gives me the chills.

Friday, September 25, 2009

John Donne.

Four hundred years ago, another well-known English guy had an opinion about being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course, it was fancier when he said it. "No man is an island entire unto himself." Boil down that island talk, and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone. And who's to say that someone can't have four legs. Someone to play with or run around with, or just hang out.

Monday, September 21, 2009



Sunday, September 20, 2009


"If ever you and Josh Golden reproduce, you'd be unlucky 'cause you're just up to his chest." -Syd. :(

In reference of being the woman on top, lmao.
I hate being short.

Friday, September 18, 2009

It Sounded Like An Accident

The pain is deep and wide.
Cannot esape from the lives we have made.
Where are we now?
I'm starting to forget just what it was you said exactly.
The love is gone,
only to spawn
Disastrous memories.

Life's a bitch.

Scratch that.

Life's a big bitch. :/

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I hate it when someone takes something from me that was originally mine.

Monday, September 14, 2009


I always feel sleepy during Chemistry time.

Chemistry is the first subject, and I guess it can be an excuse as to why I feel sleepy. I'm not saying that Miss Flores is boring, but rather what she is talking about is boring. Like today, she was explaining stuff about chemical computations. Oh my lord, my mind stopped working.

I think I can love Chemistry. I've been excited to learn about it when I was in third grade thinking that all we would do during Chemistry class is mix those fancy colored liquids together and be able to mix it together and create something out of this world.

Such dream was broken by reality. :/
I cannot stand Chemistry right now.

Well, that was a lie. I am excited everytime we're going to the Chemistry lab because that would mean we can do amazing stuff with the chemicals (the kid in me still lives), but I dread doing manual computations. I don't mind memorizing about the different people, rules, terms, and dates. But computing for stuff? Err, no thank you. I already have Advanced Algebra and Geometry to worry about.

I've read somewhere that for you to be good at something, you have to love it.
It doesn't sound as easy as it looks but I can do it. [;


Sunday, September 13, 2009


I get bored. ;)

Saturday, September 12, 2009


I just finished rereading The Gospel According To Larry by Janet Tashjian.

It's one of the best written books I've ever read.
I like Larry's writing style.

What I can't figure out is if he's really fictional or not because both the prologue and the epilogue had a brief history of how the story came about.

I've been reading Larry's blog, and it's interesting. I think you should too.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009


(click it to see the whole thing)

So, I made that. It's not really the best, 'cause I was working out to do something, and this was the outcome. It blatantly failed, but I think I like how it ended up especially the image on the right. I don't know, that's just me.

I'm having a weird kind of writers block. It's probably called as Selective Writers Block. I've been making good progress with the story I'm writing, but I cannot blog, write a poem, write a song, or anything else. It's a good thing, somehow. At least I can still write decently but I'm afraid to reread what I've written the past days. They feel all junk too me. Revision is absolutely needed.

Anyway, I was having a fancy chat with Eudes two nights ago, and there was something unforgettable in our conversation. I'll post it here with respect to Eudes. :p

xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:20:46 PM): Eudes?
eudes joshan (9/8/2009 10:20:50 PM): hm?
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:20:53 PM): I like you.
eudes joshan (9/8/2009 10:21:03 PM): oh?
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:21:07 PM): Sabi ni ****.
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:21:07 PM): xD
eudes joshan (9/8/2009 10:21:14 PM): hahahaha
eudes joshan (9/8/2009 10:21:21 PM): :))
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:21:27 PM): :))
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:22:03 PM): Hinintay ko lang yung reaction mo. xDD
eudes joshan (9/8/2009 10:22:39 PM): hahahahaha
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:23:01 PM): Pero seryoso, ano naramdaman mo nung sinabi ko yun?
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:23:06 PM): wait natatawa talaga ako
eudes joshan (9/8/2009 10:23:17 PM): naramdaman q na may ka2loy un eh...
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:23:22 PM): Ay shit.
xxheddaa.mclovin (9/8/2009 10:23:26 PM): Sayang.
eudes joshan (9/8/2009 10:23:27 PM): :))

So, my throat has been really bitchy for this week. I don't think I can shout tomorrow. It hurts everytime I talk, and the louder I get, the more it hurts. It's really bothering me, but I don't think I have to overreact. It's just a simple aching throat which randomly ached because of my non-existent habits. Have I mentioned that swallowing hurts? It does. It's extremely painful. I kind of imagined that my throat was scratched from the inside by an invisible claw monster, and now it has open wounds everywhere, therefore causing anything that hits an open wound hurt. It's like rubbing salt on a wound. If you haven't tried that, then you should. It's agonizingly fun.

Also, this week hasn't been the best week for me. :/ I'm sick and tired of all the crap that you put out on me, and I'm not blaming you for everything. I'm sorry that I actually give a damn about your health and welfare. You already know that OD isn't the solution and that it's bound to just make you worst. You don't have to be sober every night. :( What happened to the old you?

We also won the weight training competition. I'm glad. :)

Actually no, I'm not glad. I cannot deserve to be glad at this point of time. Everything is just meh. It's something I refuse to talk about, yet I should. I'm never the type to expose my unjustifiable feelings to anyone. It only makes things worst. About 95% of the population of whom I'll try to talk to regarding my problem would judge me and think I'm consistently overreacting. I am not. I'm a different individual and what may seem shallow to you will obviously seem like a big deal to me.

I'm definitely not going to just grin and bear it, and I refuse to believe that it will get better unless it will.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

What I can't understand

Is how 3 amazingly quiet people can create such noise that's enough to dominate the whole classroom when they get together talking about the most useless thing of all?

And yes, this is directed to Mira, Alyssa, and Mark. xD

Thursday, September 3, 2009

one of those nights.

i'm going to type like this because this is a "special" entry, and by special i mean random.

anyhoo, tomorrow is the field trip, i mean outbound. aha, it's so cute. everyone makes a comment about the field trip, and the phrase "i mean outbound" is automatically included. err, i think everyone should thank the lady who explained the difference between outbound and field trip. but anyway, i'm definitely not excited for the trip. why not?

lemme tell you a story.

i used to love nature. the idea of camping, going to forests, and hiking/trekking excites me. that was when i was a child. right about the time i entered the portal of adolescence, i realized that adventure crap is not really the best thing for me. i am too high-maintenance to survive. right now, the thought about going camping just frightens me. up until now, i still don't know the accurate reason behind that unexplainable fear. o.o;

if you ask me, i prefer an indoor educational tour, and by that i mean going to fancy buildings and stuff. there are a thousand imaginable museums/fancy places we can go that we've never been to. that's where i wanna go.

i suppose my mind will all change tomorrow. i'm a big hyperbole, and all i can think about is freaky stuff. i just pray that it won't rain because if it would, i would totally be not happy. like, not not not not not happy. :(

i can't wait to see the falls though. i'm sure it would be wonderful and pretty.

and the bus would definitely be funn. i'm still not sure who i'm bus mates with. damn mark won't let me sit beside alyssa D: but i supposed i can't go sit near smym which would be a bore. :( i'll probably ask eudes to sit near us. i have something major to tell him and he absolutely needs it.

i gots lots of food but i'm a selfishkid so i'll eat them when everyone else is too full =DDD

good night. (:

Tuesday, September 1, 2009


My computer and I aren't the best of friends right now. There is something wrong with it, and it's definitely not making me happy. I repeat, NOT HAPPY.

Every now and then my anti-virus keeps on popping up and asking me if I would allow the file or limit it to be opened. That doesn't bother me much, except that the file exists someplace I have no idea of, and I can't find it on search. That means one thing and that one thing spells out trouble.

It's rather kind of frustrating me, especially if the only thing to save my computer is by reformatting it. I don't mind reformatting a computer, but that would also mean I have to re-install about a thousand files. I'm glad to have a back up of all my files but it's not going to be a good job.

I'll ask my Uncle about this since he's a computer whiz. I hope this gets fixed soon. It's definitely not fun. Not fun.